I am Shonel

10 years ago my mother died of stomach cancer.

It shook me to my core & fear began growing inside me, I could feel it.

Her death taught me more than I could have ever imagined.

For that growth, I am grateful. Her death changed my life in the best possible way. 

Sometimes it feels odd saying that out loud. 

But I do.

10 years later it was my turn, it was as if I had seen it coming.

It felt strangely familiar.

I was diagnosed with Triple Negative Breast Cancer.

It accounts for only 15% of breast cancers but 50% of deaths.

It shook my existence, the fear came flooding back like a tidal wave, desperately attempting to overcome every ounce of me.

It was as it if the fear longed for me to drown and at times it literally felt as though I couldn’t breathe. I was riding the wave of ‘worst possible scenarios’ in my mind.

Then I remembered ‘sometimes we fall down because there is something down there we are supposed to find’... 

I thought of my mum, what her loss did for me many moons ago.

I decided to use that.

I was going to find a way to use that to help others while healing myself.

I believe you found me for a reason & I'm grateful that you are here.

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